Sunday, August 25, 2019

My husband, Tom is no longer my husband

My husband divorced me which ended our family.  He went into court and got the divorce finalized on July 27, 2019.  We were separated for almost 3 years... then he decided to do divorce paperwork  on January 7th.  He was giving me notice that he was doing the paperwork and that was a heads up.  He had his house, a job and he is where he wants to be.

My auto-immune system failed and started to attack itself on that day he called April's house to let me know.  My body reacted to his notice in a negative way.  I cried so hard on the front door couch.  April brought over a new soft blanket that was beautiful and I loved it that she and her family gave me a few days before for my christmas present!  She was sooo very sweet to wrap me with my blanket and I so felt her love and warmth as Tom was giving me cold and hurtful news of his decision to divorce me.  I heard Tom crying on the other side of the phone...  This was hard on both of us.

I was so glad that April was next to me on the ottoman.  She, too was crying.  She took care of me after the phone call.  She was inspired to ask me if I wanted to go to the Payson Temple that night.  And we did!  That was such a beautiful and comforting suggestion!  It was in the temple chapel that we sat near a painting that showed Lazarus being raised from the dead by Jesus.  I felt God tell me that it wasn't over with Tom and I.  Tom was going to be 'raised up' and our dead situation will be risen and made a live through Jesus.

I felt tears stream hard down my face!  There was a sister that was walking by us in the temple celestial room.  I had noticed that she kept walking by us a lot.  It wasn't till we were heading to change our temple clothes into street clothes did she approach me.  She told she didn't know how to tell me but she wanted me to know that Heavenly Father wanted me to know that He loves me.

I was so touched!!!  But I felt overwhelmed in the same breath.  I realized I had so much I needed to do beforehand and that was working on me.  To become MORE through Christ who strengthen me.  I needed to change.  I needed to be stronger spiritually and financially I needed to have money to come back to visit my kids.  It is almost a month since I have been divorced and I am grieving but I am comforted and being strengthen through God and I am loving it!!

By the way, April was just called to be the Young Women's President.